I finally have peace about looking for another job. Is it because I'll only be able to work half of december in the schools? maybe. The point is, I can look now, maybe.
The other half of that is Tom and I are buying a house here in Greeley. One of us is going to need to make a little more money on a little bit more regular basis. Even if our monthly payment will be less, we'll be spending most of our savings for the down, which means no fall back. Still, it's exciting. Crazy, stressful, and exciting.
In times like these, I really notice how different Tom and I are, and how good it is to have that other side. Buying a house is completely different for him and I. We look at different things. He sees the ugly blue color, I see potential for painting. But it's a good balance, because I often walk into a total dump and start tearing down walls in my mind, stripping the flooring, and seeing something beautiful. Tom keeps me grounded. How realistic is it, really, that I will accomplish all that I envision in those first few moments? not very. One of my biggest problems is, I fall in love with every house I see.
It will be interesting to be moving over Christmas again. I haven't put out any decorations yet, I kind of figure, if we're going to be packing soon, won't that be a big enough hastle?
In other news... what other news is there? Peace. I am still meditating on peace. I am paying attention to the way that I react and I am trying to be more thoughtful in my handling of people. It is a work in progress.
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